My personal testimony: Robert C. Martinez Well as many already know I am a pastor here in Houston Texas. and what many don’t know about me is that even though I look mean and angry I am the complete opposite. There was a time when all this was true about me. And many that knew me in my past will tell you there is no way that this man is a pastor. But you know when the world gives up on you, when all your friends you thought you could trust turn their backs on you and you feel lonely and hurt, and like me and many of you, I thought about killing myself. I was convinced that there was no body that cared whether I lived or died. I even thought my parents did not care about me or my family, so I had no reason to live. So killing myself seemed like the only way out. Satan had blinded me from the reality of love and took me farther away from the people that really loved me my family. I will never know till this day what made me call my Father and tell him what was going on In my life, but I’m glad I did. You have to understand I hated my father so much, I blamed him for all my troubles, and yet he was the one that had the answer I needed. As I spoke to him and told him I was tired of living, that my life was going nowhere, I had lost my business, my house, all our wealth and almost my family. He did not interrupt he just listened, I was very surprised that he took time to listen to me. To tell you the truth I expected something totally different. But he just let me talk and get everything out of my system, and then when I was finished he told me Robert you know the answer his name is Jesus, now there is a name that I had heard all of my life, the thing is that I never wanted to become his friend. At first I could not believe that someone I rejected all my life would want me especially in the condition that I found myself in. I had nothing to offer except a broken heart and worthless man. So he told me that Jesus would give me a new life, a second chance, and he said that at that moment where ever I was I could call upon that God that sent His Son to die on the cross for me that I might have life. You see I was raised in church I knew the word and I had heard of Jesus, but I let bitterness and anger and hate take control of my life at a very young age I turned against those that loved me, and in my hate I pushed all those that really cared away from me, I was going down the wrong road and didn’t care. And now I was given an opportunity to stop running from my fears and confront them and Jesus would do the rest. So I knelt that day and I asked God to forgive me of all my sins, and I asked Jesus into my life. And he came He gave me a new focus on life and he became my closest friend. Then I realized that I had been living a lie my life was not over and the spirit of suicide was no longer there. You see what my father said was true in Jesus my life had just started be hold everything became new, and all my past was gone from me. I found peace within me and joy in my life. Satan was no longer in control Jesus had become my Savior and my Lord. So don’t believe a lie give yourself the opportunity that God gave you, Jesus died on the cross for you that you may be free. That is how I became a Pastor. So when you see me and see how mean and ugly and angry I look, don’t be afraid come close and tell me about your troubles and I will tell you about my Friend His name is Jesus. Remember Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. And now it is God’s love in me that motivates me to love you, just as Jesus loved you and me and gave his life that we may have eternal life with Him. You’re Friend Pastor Robert Martinez Check out more Myspace layouts at pYzam. Levanto mis manos http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90yoayvRK3Y DANNY BERRIOS - Razón de vivir http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LY5w4NoNeig Mi nuevo amor (Roberto Orellana) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ar3rAD2GaEY Praise the Lord http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Q-NVHP32L8